So it looks like "once a week" really means once a month. And I'm only blogging right now to convey my frustration at weight loss. Or lack thereof. I have been trying to lose weight over the summer. My goal was 30 pounds, meaning 10 each month. I made a few steps. I tried to eat healthier (not easy when i'm not the one who buys the food in the house, and when you live on a crappy budget) and gave up drinking soda, nearly completely (I'll admit to cheating more than a few times). I figured at the very least, I'd lose 10 or stay where I was at. 


I managed to GAIN weight. Only about 10 pounds over the summer, but I'm confused none the less. It seems like nothing I do can fix it. Don't get me wrong, I'm comfortable in my skin, and I accept that's how much I weigh--RIGHT NOW. I'd like to lose some weight and be able to say I can ft in size 7 jeans again. That's the ultimate goal. I'm not fond of pants being too tight after only having them two months or so. 


Anyway, on to less depressing stuff. I managed to get out of Las Vegas for a week, which really helped improve my mood. Home hasn't been so great right now and I really needed to go somewhere peaceful and get away from everything. I went to visit a good friend in Utah. And let me tell you. That is one of the most beautiful places I've ever been. (Which is either a really high compliment to Utah, or shows just how much I HAVEN'T travelled in my life.) The high altitude was good for more than just one thing too. My asthma calmed down and I was able to do more. 


It felt so good to get out of Nevada to somewhere I can see and experience the woods. 


That seems to be all for now. 
-xo 

Okay, so the June Blitz didn't work out. For many reasons. Not the least of which being I did absolutely nothing. 


Aand when I wasn't doing nothing, I was doing too much. I am going to start a new tactic though. I'd like to blog at LEAST once a week. So today I bring you a list. How to manage all the food on your proverbial "plate" Or, "How to live life without completely going nutters." 


1. Love who you are- It's really not that hard. Sit down and list every aspect of yourself that you can possibly think of. Get some help if you need it, friends, enemies, family, they will all help you think of things about yourself. Now, read your list and circle the ones you don't like. Figure out why you don't like them. If you think you're too fat, think of ways to change it, or merely accept it. I'm in a limbo with both right now. I accept that its my body, but I'd like to be down to a certain weight again. Slow but steady wins the race. You are in control of your body. 


2. Laugh- Everybody says that Laughter is the best medicine. They're right. If you go a day without laughing, its bound to be the longest, most miserable day you'll experience. Right up there with the slow crawl to the first day of summer, or the concert you've been waiting months for. Find an excuse to laugh. Any one. Just laugh. 


3. Be Yourself- Don't change for anybody. We've all got a romping 5 year old in our brains. Its okay to let it out sometimes. Be your honest self and nobody can tell you what you are or aren't. Nobody likes that girl or guy who has a web of lies so big they could catch an elephant with it. 


4. Don't plan- Don't plan your day. Just let it happen. Some of the best days I've ever had weren't planned. This doesn't mean sit at home, it means go watch a spontaneous movie, or go somewhere exciting. Look up events on facebook and go to them. Take a hike if you live near woods. Visit some local attractions if you live in a big city. Just get out and get spontaneous. 
You have to go to work, that's a must. But do we plan for that? Is it ever thought about like that? Most of us cloud work out as a black spot in our plan anyway. "Go to work until 4. Be home at 4:15. Go for a walk at 4:30. Feed the cat at 5:00 Make plans for every minute of tomorrow at 5:01..repeat" Your free time is YOUR free time. 
I'm saying nobody can ever predict how the day's going to turn out. Plan or no plan. You could go into labor 3 weeks early and otherwise have been planning to go on a structured walk around a park. 


5. Deal with one bill at a time-  Rent. Electric. Water. Car. etc. We all have these bills. But many think of them as one big problem, rather than separate entities. Chances are they aren't all due on the same day. If you get paid bi-weekly, you're probably stressing about what money goes where and how you can possibly get it all paid. Just take it one bill at a time. Write the check for rent or mortgage and send it off, then the next day do the water bill. 


6. Budget- Many people find this to be an evil word, but it's not. It simply means deciding where money needs to go, and where you want it to go. Some bills are the same every month and will be easy to budget. Some aren't. Write down the static bills first, then move on to the utilities like gas and electric. They're usually around the same, but we all have high months, plan to pay a slightly higher amount, so you won't be tight when the actual numbers come in. Once all the bills are written down, move on to the other essentials, like food and gas. 


With food prices ever getting higher, it can put a big dip in the budget. Find the sales. Planning around 200 dollars for food is practical, but it can be done under that. Healthy fruits like apples and bananas are usually fairly cheap. They can make a great snack, compared to the 5 dollar packages of klondike bars or 4 dollar bags of chips. 


Put the rest of the money into catagories such as "savings" "entertainment" "emergency" and "other" other being anything else that could come up. If you've got kids this could include allowances, toys, clothes, etc. 


7. Deal with what life throws at you- Just deal with it. Don't spend time worrying about how you're going to overcome this latest blow. Think it through rationally and calmly and then act. Find some way to laugh it off or joke about it later. Think your way through it slowly and avoid a mental breakdown. List all possible obstacles this problem could possibly carry and figure out how you're going to avoid or get past them. What I'm saying is, Don't stress. Stressing creates a mental block in which you are unable to see a way out of your situation. 


Those were 7 ways that I found to keep happy. I've also just realized that they're the opposite of my mom. Odd. See you next week!

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That link, if you didnt know is the link to winning a wand from the Wizarding World of Harry Potter theme park at Universal in Orlando. 

Okay, on to the planned blog. 

Obama has declared June national LGBT month. If you don't know what that stands for it would be Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender. I don't have a problem with this, but doesn't President Obama have more important issues to deal with? I think it's cool he thought of us, but oil spill? Economy? Troops? What's being done about them? We have a pride parade here in Vegas and they've been happening all over the country. Why declare it now when he could be doing something for our troops overseas. Or to help the economy? 

I guess I just won't understand. What are your thoughts on it? 

Hey! So in about..an hour it'll be June first which means my first 30 days of blog post. A little info about 30 days.. 

I'm doing it because I've been having a MAJOR case of writer's block, which I said in my last blog about half a month ago. Thus I am challenging myself to write. These blogs will be about anything and everything that happens in my day to day life. 

Why blogging? You say. Well because with a blog, I can literally jot down what happened today, edit it for grammar and move on to tomorrow. 

If anybody ends up reading this, comments would be MUCH appreciated, as it will make me feel less like I'm talking to myself. Also, I may be taking idea suggestions at the end of the month, because let's face it, I don't really have a life if I'm sitting here on the internet. 

Hmm, that's about it I suppose. I'll be posting either when I wake up, or when I get home tomorrow. 

I know I said I'd use this, and I haven't been. I've been having a MAJOR case of writer's block in the last 2 months, which is why in June I'm going to do 30 days of blogs. One each day on random things in my life. I'm aware that NOBODY is reading this, but on the off chance somebody comes across it, I'll try to make them interesting. 




On the other hand, life has been zooming on. I hate to sound like every other teenage dreamer out there, but I feel like my chances of breaking out of my shell and being everything I want to be are flying by me. I feel like I'm just "average" at everything and not "good" at anything. And even if I were, I can't find the right outlets to become anything off of it. 

Sometimes I wonder how all these actresses, and musicians, and even magicians got their foot in the door. Being a fan of Criss Angel, I've heard stories about how he did whatever it took, he pushed his "art" as he calls it almost all the time, he was always changing, always growing. 

Everybody's got to do something to get their foot in the door, and the ones that make it are the ones that work for it. How does one go about pushing crappy poetry, short stories, mediocre photography, or dare I say it, semi-alright acting and singing? 

It's been one year and one day since this picture was taken. In that year I got used to taking the city bus, saw relationships end, saw a new decade begin. In that year I began my junior year of high school, came up with book ideas, took some pictures that I'm REALLY proud of, spoke in front of a class of my peers, and started my second year of Journalism in school. But recently, I've been... nothing. I've been slacking off school and definitely confused about the direction my life is taking. Am I becoming.. lazy? I guess I just feel like school isn't going anywhere. I've never gotten good grades, unless you count third grade.  I just feel like I'm running uphill in my life. College is still up in the air, but wherever I'm going, I'm going to make it me. 

Sorry for the long blog, if any of you are actually reading it, I forgot how good it feels to write. 

I welcome you all to my new website. This is the portion of the site I think I'll be using the most. My first official blog will be going up tomorrow, so don't forget to check that out.